A Dream: T_T

"I don't want you to become one of those people who stay in their hotel room and complain about things. We won't go very far in one day, but we'll take all the time you want to see the world."

- "I don't need to see the world, Bao He. I just need to see that you're okay."

"No, Mommy. You need to do this *so* I can be okay."

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Having me be okay isn't just something you get for free, you have to work to make it happen.

You have to show me you're making of life what you want, so I can hope to make the same of myself some day.

You must understand the kind of life I hope to achieve, and you must accept that this is who I want to be.

If you cannot, if no part of you is what I came from, if I am a foreign body that does things differently, thinks differently, lives entirely opposite to the person you are - then I am a fetus expelled from your womb who you pretended was your son. And I was never born, because you did not give me life.

So you don't need to worry if I'm okay.

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I don't wanna feel this overwhelming hostility

Gotta
Cut away, clear away
Slip away and sever this
Umbilical residue

Keeping me from killing you

- Orestes by Tool