Memorandum

This morning, I was down on myself. Feeling empty with the accomplishments of the past week, because at that moment I wasn't doing what I felt I needed to. After writing this to myself, I felt a bit better.

Be the best of who you are (are.. are.. are..)
Be the best of who you be

It's good to have high expectations of yourself
Just set your goals within reach and work on them.

Bring your secret life to the forefront. Acknowledge it, credit it, and be complete.

I categorized my porn videos and transfered to USB drive so I can access from tablet when laptop battery runs out.

I extracted the mp3s of videos with sexy dialogue to play off USB drive. So I listen to it while driving, or at bedtime.

I zip the images and delete them afterwards, so the porn doesn't show up on the tablet in public. I also screenshot videos and zip those files.

My USB drives attach to an adapter that plugs into tablet or phone for extra storage.

This is my one week anniversary of living in my car.
I've done a lot, but I am concerned I'm not doing what I need to be at the moment. I've been partially rested, without a full night's sleep, mostly because before bedtime I've been occupied by porn.

I ought to manage those masturbation sessions into my day, now that I'm properly set up, so I can do other things. I need to square that away so my sleep blocks are solid.

I need to produce some work. Learn some new things, and get my life ambitions on the move. The Curriculum page with OCW links was a good start. I need to immerse myself into it now, and start producing knowledge. The blog posts need to align with my intentions. Right now, the posts are feeling like a time-consuming routine, that takes away from what I really should be doing... because they're not putting forth the content that I'm really interested in creating.