Spiritual Aspect of the Journey

This trip really isn't about God. I want to know the why, how, and if of life - not bundle all my needs into love for Jesus.

But religious people see me as a soul in need of saving.

I'm told things like, you're a smart guy meaning you'll eventually accept God into your life. Between the lines they are telling me: You're almost there. This is your call for help to find Jesus. They say all is possible through God and *really* what you are searching for *truly* He is the only way.

I say, sorry no way, I got to go to school.

From their perspective, I look like the one in the dark.

It's like Multi-Level-Marketing insurance salesmen who targeted me when I recently graduated college. They see I fit their ideal demographic, but not really understand that I'm not an ideal recruit. I think about things too much.

Believers who hand me pamphlets sell three main assumptions that I want to go Heaven, I'm afraid to go to Hell, and I want Him to provide for me. But I don't. Here's my stance:


    1. I can go to Hell. He can send me wherever he wants. That's on Him.
- No, don't you see? It's on you. It's your choice whether you follow His way to Heaven.

I decide my own morals. I think about my own choices and how I want to live my life. I wouldn't worship a vain God that sends good people to Hell just for not believing in Him. That's people. That's churches.

An all powerful, all wise God who gets butt hurt that I don't believe in him? In that case, I wouldn't want to spend an afterlife by his side in Heaven anyhow.


    2. Limbo is worse than Hell.

Limbo is just pointless existence without change or end. Which is like, endless crappy Life. Which apparently is what a lot of people strive for. So I guess they wouldn't mind it after they die.

- Hell is awful. You wouldn't like it.
You'll get used to it after a while.
- No, it's much worse. You can never get used to Hell. It's 10000x worse.

You'll have to, because you can't die once you're dead. Suffering can either kill you or make you capable of tolerating it. By definition, intolerable means you cannot take anymore and you die before it stops. Anything short of that is you getting tougher.

Hell would have to be exponentially worse the longer you stayed in it, and even that wouldn't be intolerable. Since dying is impossible when you are not alive, you would be one tough sunuvabitch after an eternity in Hell.

Hell isn't that much different from Life, except you are invincible.


    3. Don't you want to be blessed, and have a happy life through Him? No, because it is unjust.

It is evil to believe your good life is the straight consequence of worshiping God, and that the people who suffer are being punished for their un-Christian way of life.

Most all normal people want a nice home, a job that provides for them, a healthy family. That's universal. But how many don't have that, that are forced into hard lives, so that a relatively small group does enjoy that? Across the world, and in your very neighborhoods people are struggling while God gives you the good life. That's not because they choose to live against His path. Even within your own religion, there are haves and have nots. How is that a faith-based consequence?

If you claim the benefits are purely spiritual, then you could make a claim that all people are rewarded by God equally and fairly. That he loves every one of us and gives each what he needs. But that's not the claim, it's very much about material things when the religious people tell you to accept God. That they are thankful for the *things* God gives. That accepting God changed their desperate life around, improving their quality of life with having a job, a nice car, a home.

As soon as you cross over into the material gains, that is horse shit. Giving every person who accepts God the nice job, nice car, nice home, large happy family would be impossible. "Oh God can provide, he can do anything." But there are not enough material resources on Earth to distribute that much wealth to every individual. If each person on Earth lived like an American, God would need to create five Earths to provide for us.

Plus, say I wanted five children. And I did that. Like those no contraception religious people. And so does every other family on Earth. How are *our children* going to have as much as we have? It doesn't take a fifth grader to know that dividing by a bigger number gives you less. Then how are their five children going to? And their children's children... all 115 billion of them... fifteen times the world's population within a lifetime!

There are limiting factors to human population and prosperity that can't be solved by simply believing in a higher power. If all anybody knows is that God can do anything (if He wants to), then He will simply never want to.

It frightens me how many people fanatically live according to a belief that God causes everything, rather than understanding how things actually work.

This is what I respect about God:

Believing in God can help a great number of people. Sometimes we don't want to understand how everything works. We all need reassurance and to believe in ourselves. We don't always have our needs met by the external world, and we need to dig deep inside ourselves to find faith to keep going.

Psychologically, the belief itself reveals a lot about the human conditions. God fulfills our needs, because we have them. God is the always the answer, so that helps me see what are the questions and who are the people asking them.

If Aliens found our civilization, I think God would puzzle them until they look from the perspective not of what He is, but of who we are.

If God created us, then what created God?
Need.
We invented God out of our insatiable needs.

Every time you feel lost
Tell yourself
I am loved.
I have a reason for being here.

God loves me because I exist and he doesn't.
And be here to feed mosquitoes.

Even if it's not true,
you'll feel better because
it's something we all need to hear.
Like, 'everything is going to be just fine'.


It's interesting to me that people who speak of God
don't consider that Religion.
Even though belief in a deity is the very definition.

People lose faith in the church organization
after witnessing abuse of power
but their excuse is that people are to blame.
People are fallible, but their belief is not.

It's like when the scam falls apart,
the village ousts the scammers
but not the scam.
And they wait and welcome the next con-men to arrive.

Religion is a virus.
It enters through ignorance, peer pressure, and desperation.
It needs a host,
It needs to reproduce and spread from one infected agent to another.

No, it is more like a symbiotic bacterium.
That grooms a servant to be pleasing to its master